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Friday, November 30, 2007
everyone has been saying that im jiwang.
for you info, fyi means for your info.
for your info, writing a poem is not jiwang okay.
writing a poem makes me feel so free to express my own feelings.
the freedom to use simple words yet the meaning(s) is so powerful.

boredom is killing me these few days.
work?
no point of working at this period of time.
too late to work.
i guess i should enjoy myself till next week with the upcoming family holidays and hoping for alot of gatherings with my friends.
And i got this feeling that i should start studying now.
despite the importance of studyin, i feel unmotivated(if there's such a word) and the drive to study has yet to regain the momentum.

I'm hoping that Justin Timberlake will visit Singapore in his future tour trip.
And also if possible, Craig David or Gym Class Heroes.
I have not gone for any band or solo concerts yet because the bands or the soloists doesnt interest me.
I feel so loser for not going to any concert but what matters most is that to forget about what other people think. If there were comedy concerts, magic performance or the artistes listed above concerts, i will be buying their tickets without any hesitation.

love is a force but you can't force love.

5:42 PM ♥

Thursday, November 29, 2007
today's post will be in Malay Language.
apology to all non-malay blog readers.
i will be missing my malay class and lessons next year.
so yeah, want to write my post in Malay Language today.

"tidak kenal maka tidak cinta"
penyataan tersebut memberi maksud yang mudah.
"cinta itu tidak bermata"
Alah Muz, "Apa yang susah?"

tidak haruslah kau abaikan
perasaan yang mendalam, membendungkan hati.
Aidil berkata, "Terdapat banyak ikan"
Tetapi ikan mana yang sudi.

seharusnya ku bersendirian
memang ku sangka demikian
bahawa ku pasti melupakan
puteri ku di ingatan.

WAHH!!.. i cant believe it. i wrote this poem in 5minutes and it was a spontenous one.
hmmm.
the poem sounds so professional.
okay
nevermind.

:D

6:38 PM ♥

Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Gym Class Heroes.

10:48 PM ♥

East Coast Park Anyone?
All my plans went wrong today.
Should i blame the weather or myself?
Met up with Raji early in the morning just to see Zulkifli naked in front of his house.
HAHAHA.
just kidding. Aheemmmm.
Went to his house to get his fishing tools and off we went to east coast park with the conjunction of our so called class outing. Looks more like "half-class outing".
Anyway, that was not the worst scenario.(not the part Zulkifli is half naked but the half-class thingy"
It was disappointing yet i wasn't complaining and i was there to have fun.
"Have Fun your head la Muz"
Why did i say that.
it was because of the FREAKING rain.
it started raining like dogs and cats and tigers and zebras and elephants, wadever u want to call it.
Even the shopping centres in Orchard Road such as Lucky Plaza, were flooded.
Okay, back to my story. The sad part was not being able to fish after carrying the tools from one end of Singapore to the other end.
Okay, that moment wasn't that bad. Maybe it rained for a reason.
The thing that i can' stand is cycling in the rain in my singlet and with my only pair of shorts.
Do you know how it feels like to enter the mrt with a pair of wet shorts?
It is like you carrying a piece of shit in your hands.
People dont notice and yet you're feeling uncomfortable.
You should know how it feels like.
Like girls having menses and they forgot to bring sanitary pads.


Fuglish Piece Of Crap My Day is.


My post is getting longer.



That's Dumb, Dumber& Dumbest.
Guess who is the Dumbest.

I feel like going to the Zoo. anyone interested?
And i want to buy new shades. anyone interested?
and i need a girlfriend. anyone interested?HAHAHA..
im not a despo okay.
being single is fun.
no commitment, restrictions and the best part is u still can scout for girls.
how life can be without a girlfriend.

sorry zai for everything.

10:03 PM ♥

Tuesday, November 27, 2007
i was walking home while listening to my playlist in my handphone.
the songs i listened to was kind of weird as it somehow played the songs that followed the timeline of my life. to be more precise, the timelime of my life these few days.
it was weird because i set the playlist to shuffle mode and the songs that played during the journey home was properly structured.
so the songs played were(foolowing the sequences in ascending order):

"Damn Girl", Justin Timberlake
"Because of You", Ne-Yo
"Wait For You", Elliot Yamin
"Clothes Off", Gym Class Heroes
"The Way I Are", Timbaland

so, imagine a scenario where u met a gorgeous girl. So "Damn Girl" suites the occasion.
and then, the next scenario where u do things because of her. "Because of You"
next, you would do anything especially "Wait for You"
afterwhich, she went off with another guy, and u start to chill and forget about her. "Clothes Off"
and finally, you prove to her that u are the way u are and u can be happy without her, "The Way I Are".

10:40 PM ♥

Monday, November 26, 2007
tTree of Friends
sorry if your name is not here.
although it is not mentioned here, im still thinking of you.

Bestie: Nur'Atiqah'Izzah
You have been my great listening partner and there's so much to say about the things you had done that made me feel worthwhile.

ClosestFriend: Noraidil Sufyan
Ms Goh called you "Yan". The one thing that i must say about him is that he listens to you and try to cheer you up eventhough he himself is in despair or anger. He is known as the motivator in my tree of friends as he is best in motivating and also INFLUENCE me to do such stuffs like climbing the roof of the school.

Partner-In-Plan: Muhd Helmi
I love this guy. We always plan stuff and get things done. Other than that, he is my so-called advisor and both of us are in the same boat. No girls, having fun being single and trying to live life to the fullest each second.

My Wingman: Muhd Zainuddin
not as in chicken wing but i called him my wingman as he always supports me in whatever stuffs, always giving tips and help me in certain situation. He is one of my motivator too just like aidil. And i want to give credits to Zai and Aidil. Hoping to be the "the six of us" soon. haha. so do encourage me.

Neutral Boy: Raji Muhd Sharil
sorry arh raji i call you the neutral boy. He is cool about anything and the reason that i called him the neutral boy because he does not get himself into political stuffs in school. For example, we may dislike this guy but Neutral Boy will be his friend despite we disliking him.

My "Mat": Abdul Fareez
Everybody's Mat. Everytime we meet him, the first thing that come out from Aiman's mouth is "Eh, Mat". Haha. Fareez is my coolest guy and we have been friends since secondary one. Im always the one listening to his stories and for me, i just keep on nodding. haha. his stories are truly mat stories. Just Kidding. He is a great guy to share stories with such as ghost stories.

Buddy: Haziq
Sorry arh Haziq. We have been buddy since sec one and i called him buddy because we sit beside each other during sec 4. We talked about girls especailly u-know-who haziq. He is a biology maniac. But he gotten B3 for bio. haha. same goes for me. He is my partner in organising stuff and apart from that we are always the ones to be serious and get the job done.

And to my GREAT FRIENDS WHICH I HAVE YET TO MENTION.
You are all my superb friends although u dont receive any recognition here.
i will name it all here.

dunearn secondary school:
hafiz,fareez,haziq,JAMES, JUSTIN, RYAN, Ariff, Fadhli, Fahmie, Helmi, Zai, Aidil, Joey, Qamarul, AIMAN, ABU, Zulhafiz, Zulkifli. i hope that's all i think.

innova jc:
taufik, nafe, zul,adam, hong yi, lloyd, victor, nasrul, raji, faizal and all my classmates.
socccer boys!. raihan, syed ahmad, khairul,hafiz, hamzar, joshua, yusoff, farhan, afiq and everybody else.

to everybody especially innovians.
sorry if i have ignored you in school.
it is not i am arrogant or egoistic or whatever.
(eventhough i may look like one on the first impression)
im not okay.
i can be friendly if you know me more.
dont judge a book by its cover.



8:33 PM ♥

Sunday, November 25, 2007
another chatting session with Nafe.
he approached me and we just talk about girls..


nafe says:
btw, ur blogpost i think ah.. is the words every guy wants to say
nafe says:
hahah
nafe says:
the love not blind part
muz.' says:
ya?
nafe says:
?
muz.' says:
which part?
nafe says:
the love is simple part
nafe says:
wait wait. i copy paste
muz.' says:
k
nafe says:
muz.' says:
if everybody is blind, they will just go with someone who is emotionally comfortable and attached with
muz.' says:
so my theory goes like this, if everbody is blind, love is so clear.
muz.' says:
and no more "love is blind"
muz.' says:
ya?
muz.' says:
yup
muz.' says:
this applies for both parties actually
muz.' says:
not only guys la
muz.' says:
maybe that someone u fantasy of is beyond your reality
muz.' says:
u want tt girl to go blind right
muz.' says:
haha
nafe says:
oo
nafe says:
oh. yeah. dont seem intent to get a girl
nafe says:
they'll come to u
muz.' says:
so basically ure waiting for fate?
nafe says:
kinda
nafe says:
hahah
nafe says:
err. i dunno
nafe says:
in general la. some guys are like that. they are their natural side when they're with friends. if got girls they interested in ah, they ARE what the girls like. that is what i feel
muz.' says:
yea..true man..ure the man
muz.' says:
sometimes to me, u need a balance of natural and act
muz.' says:
u need to act when certain unforseen circumstances is blocking u
muz.' says:
let say when u need to act mature
nafe says:
u need to know when to balance ur personalities.
nafe says:
in front of your friends maybe jokerish and abit act.
muz.' says:
yea
nafe says:
but 1to1 with close friends is where your true self
muz.' says:
yup..true
muz.' says:
and that is the reason why u must go out in a group with the girl u like in the group
muz.' says:
so u can see her natural side
nafe says:
yarh
muz.' says:
but the problem is that, u will have this unnatural,awkward and absurd feeling when talking to her in the grooup itself
nafe says:
yeah
muz.' says:
so this comes back to the point where we should set our mentality to be frens first
nafe says:
yes
nafe says:
be frens
nafe says:
get to know her more
muz.' says:
precisely

In conclusion, what we have learnt is that in life or to like someone in particular, u need to have a balance of personality. When you have a date with someone, ur friends will be saying "just be yourself". That's true. U need to be yourself but when ure with her, the situation changes. For example, when you're ordering food for the girl, u will be more gentleman, mature and mannered. So, is that natural or acting? If you go out with your close friends, u will go burping anywhere, laughing ur head out and screaming. Okay, dont get side track here. The point is u need a balance of personality in life. For me, it is controlling my ego. And that is what my bestie told me..thanks.

4:52 PM ♥

Saturday, November 24, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARISSA
although i don't know you so much but what are friends for.
went to Yio Chu Kang Stadium today to watch the touch ruggers.
they did a great job i might say eventhough undergoing through harsh canditions such as the hot weather.
the guys team did great although they lost and how i wish i can play just now.
watching them just made me into the "adrenaline rush" mode.
the excitement of watching them made me jump for joy although i was sitting down.
sorry guys i cant play and it is due to my sprain ankle.
i know sprain ankle is just a minor injury but i want to fully heal so that i can play at my optimal.

9:41 PM ♥

Friday, November 23, 2007
a conversation i had with me bestie......
(actually wanted to keep it confidential but the topic was general)


muz.' says:
some of my frens said i jual mahal
muz.' says:
i think im not
muz.' says:
maybe i ignored those who admired me(not being action here)
'Atiq says:
(HAHA)
muz.' says:
but sometimes i want to love someone and to be loved in reply
muz.' says:
its kinda of bullshit to say or reject certain girls
muz.' says:
that are not to my likings
muz.' says:
maybe love involves two party to clap with both hands
muz.' says:
and feet
muz.' says:
and their heart beating as one
muz.' says:
resolve problems together and sharing moments with and without each other
muz.' says:
my point is in order to love, u need to be loved
muz.' says:
love in not a complication if u think about it again
muz.' says:
it is so simple it turns out to be an obstacle course for u
muz.' says:
i mean for me
muz.' says:
i just think tt girls should be more aware of themselves
'Atiq says:
Hmm like how?
muz.' says:
as in appearance and picking their partner
muz.' says:
i tink same goes fo r guys too
muz.' says:
know ur limits
muz.' says:
if ure just an average guy, just go average girls
muz.' says:
if everybody is blind, they will just go with someone who is emotionally comfortable and attached with
muz.' says:
so my theory goes like this, if everbody is blind, love is so clear.
muz.' says:
and no more "love is blind"
muz.' says:
oh ya
muz.' says:
and i cant take insults
muz.' says:
i can tolerate some but if its too extreme for instance insults without me knowing it, i feel fcked up about it
muz.' says:
i take insults as a learning point for me to change myself
muz.' says:
i really do
muz.' says:
sometimes insults are compliments that make u a special guy
muz.' says:
for example, sometimes ppl see me as egoistic
muz.' says:
okay,i can accept the fact tt im can be ego, and im trying to change myself slowly, to be more humble and friendly
muz.' says:
apart from that, i can be sharp with my words
muz.' says:
im a straightforward guy but i do think before i say something
'Atiq says:
Hmm okay.
muz.' says:
how this relate to love?
'Atiq says:
How the girl thinks of you?
'Atiq says:
As in how will the girl judge you?
muz.' says:
yea i guess so
muz.' says:
i tink im trying to change in order to decrease my negative points or so called weaknesses and meet the preferences to suite more girls

the words i said were words that came out without me having second thoughts.
i reckon that the words i said were sincere.
hmmm..

5:35 PM ♥

Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Pahang Trip. Start from the last day to first day.

Last train ride to pahang

went kfc upon reaching Singapore.
i want that sandals!
bestie looks cute when she is tired.

my instructor for thr 5D4N canmp, MOJO!
we love you lots and without you, there's no life in our team.
The Chiefs and intructors.




Last DAy at Centrepoint, Kuala Lipis, Pahang. Two star Hotel.
And i think althought it is two star, it is worth the stay there.


Slumber party at our room, 736, on the second night before trekking.
We got scolded for making lots of noise. haha.
the jeep ride was bumpy great.

atiqah who started the fire again.
Below is the CIP programme and we visited the orang asli.


love the kids. Ahmad looks retard.
first day of the pahang trip.
from jurong point with aidil and naseha
after which, met rusee at tanjong pagar and took a cab to KTM.





B.F.F.


hahahahahahahahaha.












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10:25 PM ♥

Saturday, November 17, 2007
will be leaving soon for pahang.
will be back on wednesday.

and will update the pictures taken during chalet.

so many "will" in my post.
as if i have the will to do a lot of things at a time.

10:15 AM ♥

Monday, November 12, 2007

i will not be updating till thursday as im going for the class chalet.
it will be super duper fun i reckon.
anyway, i really cant wait for the chalet, pahang trip and my holidays!
jessica alba is still my hottie for this month..
she is sure bagus.
so random.
i love this picture.


10:07 PM ♥

Sunday, November 11, 2007


Jessica Alba is damn HOT

I llloooovvvveeee her.

:D


9:49 PM ♥

Craig David!
although some of you don't know him, he is a master in rhythm and blues song.
well, for me it is. the song you're listening right now,its one of his songs.
the lyrics are simple yet emotionally powerful to an extent it can give u this sensation of love.

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.

Apart from that, my ALL-TIME favourite is Justin Timberlake.
he is my cousin actually.hahahahaha. but atiqah dont believe it and she said he is her own brother.
ni dah bedek ni.

Yesterday went to Nafe house as he hosted a so called dinner for his friends.
We ate like crazy, played like mad and watched movie like a fool as we were watching American Pie.
Its really funny when virgins want to get laid and they try to seek every chances and ways even if they get themselves embarrassed.
Didnt take any pictures yesterday. ):

10:50 AM ♥

Friday, November 09, 2007
BANNER COMPLETED
im so happy as the banner turned out to be more beautiful than i've expected.
i will take a snap shot of it and post it next time. didnt have the time to take photos of it.
training was as usual(the usual is the coach keeps shouting at us).
other than that next week will be a hectic week for me.

monday-NWO outing
tuesday-chalet
wednesday-chalet
thursday-chalet
friday-ogl meeting + dunearnite
saturday- pahang
sunday-pahang
monday-pahang
tuesday- pahang
wednesday-pahang

TODAY was super duper damn hot
everybody is falling sick and im terrified of that.
i dont want to get sick.
muz wants to enjoy during the chalet and pahang trip. :)

Craig David songs are superb.
today i feel that i got nothing to post.

10:11 PM ♥

Thursday, November 08, 2007
today's post is all about my bestie, atiqah'izzah.
she is leaving innova jc and im super sad becaus of that.
eventhough we can keep in touch, the feeling is awkward when ure not around in school.
i cant approach you to chit chat anymore, i cant smile the way i used to smile when ure ard.
ur smile is priceless okay. that is wad makes u special.a good fren of mine.well, best friend of mine.
Muzhaffar will miss u, Zai ur boyfie is always missing u and Aidil&Nas will miss u too.
I think your whole class will miss u too.
Your existence spice up our lives. Your presence makes our day.
Your absence is unacceptable yet we know you have to move on.
its okay right?. we can still meet each other.
"the four of us plus Muz". haha..hope it can be "the six of us" soon.
Anyway, advice from me is that continue studying hard, try harder and never give up. :)
Bestie, we will miss you especially me.

9:29 AM ♥

Tuesday, November 06, 2007
went bugis today with aidil to buy paints for the flags.
it was tiring. shopping is not my cup of tea.
shopping=tiring
u will feel giddy, slight headache and shagged.
and at the end of the day, u will feel total exhaustion.
PAINTS BOUGHT.
TOMORROW doing the flag.
Rusydia is so talkative se today.
She loves to talk i guess and it was non-stop in the taxi as well as wen i called her.
But still, she is my empress. haha.
Lost my wallet and phone today.
Found it later at the general office as the security guard found it.
fortunately.
today im so lucky.
lucky lucky me.

8:27 PM ♥

Monday, November 05, 2007
i wana watch " I Am Legend"
and main actor is Will Smith
i love him cos he's acts look real.
short preview of it......
i wana watch with my close friends. i really do.
especially james, long time since we watched a movie.



9:17 PM ♥

Sunday, November 04, 2007
















the gossipz consisting of me, aidil and zai!.the three of us.
my 10 years of frinedship, HAZIQ!..[ in white](alicia eh?)
my partner in plan, helmi.[in black]
the big orange/yellow bus we hired. and our duneanmates and maly classmates!.
aiman,u taik..qam, blah blah. zul, abu ,raji and lots more.
mee taimak.

9:48 AM ♥

Thursday, November 01, 2007
WOHOO!!!!
today marked the final day of Project Work.

Interviewer: How do you feel right now, Muzhaffar?
Muzhaffar: Ermm, well, i feel damn relief and ecstatic as the gate of freedom is finally open. :D
Interviewer: I believe you have holiday homeworks that you need to hand in by next week.
Muzhaffar: Do i give a damn?! (still smiling)[hahahahahahahaha]

Oral Presentation was pretty good i might say. Im not being overconfident, self proclaiming or wad but i felt that our group did leave a good impression on the assessors. They were like nodding thier heads and going "hmmm", whispering to each other and smiling away. Come on happiness, surround me.

The questions they asked me during the Q&A session was like in another language.
"What subject do you want to implement in your Project Work?"
HUH?
He repeated the question two times, and the other assessor rephrase it until i understand.
haha.
and the question that bloody hell made me think was
"Hmm, just out of curiosity, why did u choose teaching as your project?"
The only way out for me was to praise the assessors and the teachers..haha
Miss Gowry,one of the assessors, was like helping me, "..teachers are nobles.."
and i was like," err...ya ya ya"..agreeing with them is one way to get high marks.haha.

:D

5:29 PM ♥

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